Now I know this is a little late, but I would like to reflect on my time up to now with e-Communication and how much work I think I have put into bettering myself and helping the program with projects. This past semester has been crazy busy, I am still in denial that it is almost over. Yet it is time to face the music and talk about what has been going on throughout the semester. Now I have been up to my neck in band footage for a while now, but to get the full story we start at the beginning with an eager yet unsure Jessie fresh into her junior year. Now I was very scared coming into the year that my filing or editing skills would be terrible compared to those in my class, and I shied away from any major roles. That is until they needed people to step up for the all school video. So I did what I always do and tried out something difficult. I became a day editor and helped a little over the evening to get all the footage ready for the major edits. My confidence in my own skills and work grew and that is when I took the role of co-head-editor on the Band Documentary that our department is making as part of a fund raiser. Now I then started overthinking things and became very convinced that my skills weren't good enough for the project, but since I can't just quit (It's not in my DNA) I kept with it and finally overcame my fear of not being good enough.
Now my key issue was self-confidence, something that I struggle with outside of the film-making department, and I knew that in order to get anything done I would have to work on small projects to reassure myself that I was good at what I do and that I wouldn't completely mess everything up. Now this took some small projects and helping other out a lot, but I was able to convince myself that I can still edit (thank goodness I didn't loose that skill, that would be a problem) and that my storylines were still applicable. Now this has shown through most in the past couple of weeks when I took charge on filming interviews and editing together short clips as well as working on a few side projects for friends. I also maintained communication with the band families and our video group, which helped me feel more at home. Now this all led to the past couple of days (and the next few weeks) where me and the other team members on editing (Drew and Elizabeth) get together and edit for hours after school to hit our deadline, and make a kick-butt video.
Now this semester as a whole has really changed me and helped me grow as a person. I have made some of the best friends ever and learned more about myself through the work that I do that ever before. I have realized that my work is important to me and the relationships I build through this work are just as important. The people I work with everyday (including my teacher) help me to better understand who I am and what I want to work on. I know that once this crazy video is over and we have all of the copies distributed. I will start planning my next adventure in Videos and I can't wait to better explore myself and hopefully entertain a few people along the way. I have learned to believe in myself and to let the future take me where it wants, because in the end it is in control not me. So thank you to all who have helped me most to grow these past few months and thank you to all I annoyed in the process. You have helped me to get this far and have helped me prepare myself for what lies ahead both in e-Comm and in life.
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